Procrastination, glottonous beings, icebergs

I suppose I have mastered one grand skill here at BYU: procrastination. Yes, I did learn this skill earlier on in life; however, I am nearly certain that I have not perfected it nearly as well as I have here. I have managed to put nearly every assignment off so much that either I end up not doing it, or it is absolutely so late that I feel absolutely overwhelmed. Indeed, writing this blog is putting off my homework. The absolutely ridiculous part of this whole ferocious cycle is, though, that I even work out these amazing schedules going by the half-hour of exactly what I will be accomplishing, but then I get onto facebook, or in this case blogspot, and I waste all of my time, accomplishing nothing. What a ridiculous way to live life! I know that I need to change, I even change in theory, yet in all practicality my life remains the same! Well, furthermore, I have this great desire to spend all of my time with friends. I have become a social glutton!! Is this how people will know me? As a glutton?! Well, there are definitely worst things to be gluttonous about. Perhaps a social glutton is better than someone who is gluttonous about food, although I probably am that too. Can I bridle my passions? Is this one of my trials--monitoring time, friends, and food? Indeed, I believe it is! I sincerely believe that I struggle with moderations. I tend to either want none or all! Is that the way most people are? I don't understand normal. Everybody strives to be "normal." I've heard a billion times that there is no such thing as normal. However, how do people know what normal is? People do not, in general, go around parading what they typically do, how they typically feel, and/or what they normally think. I believe that is a great misfortune. Perhaps we all suffer from great feelings of inadequacy, but nobody says anything, and because of that, everybody considers themselves abnormal. How unfortunate would that be! It always amazes me how alike people really are. Often it takes merely one conversation for people to find out their common interests and feelings, granted that would be one great conversation in which the people actually would have to open up and share. I have found that people rarely share their wealth of knowledge with others. I find this gravely misfortunate, as well. So much time and pain could be saved if people would open up and share what they have learned and gone through. Although I am tired of this metaphor, I'll use it anyway: People are like icebergs. One can only see the very top of a person, but that person always has so much more down beneath, that one can only imagine. One can look at the behaviors, mannerisms, clothes, appearance of a person, but could never tell why those behaviors, mannerisms, clothes, and appearance are evident in that person. Only as you delve deeper into the ocean, the soul, of a person, can you truly see what is going on underneath the facade. However, I believe that the iceberg runs down so deep, that it is impossible to get to the very bottom of it. With practice one can dive down deeper and deeper, but never can a diver reach the bottom. Why are people as icebergs? Is it a form of self-preservation? A way to not get hurt? Is a conscious choice, or some unconcious hiding? I suppose it is a little of both. People hide their deepest desires to shield them from the pain of peers, or of failure. Somehow, societal norms have also worked their way into what people will admit to, or talk about. I tend to blow these norms. I believe that many societal norms governing what we may comfortable talk about merely impede the progress of human beings. Not all norms do, but some may. For example, I do not care to hear about sex, homosexuality, or cannibalism. It is against societal norms to talk about those subjects, well, most of our taboos are gone, but these are still taboos in my society, and speaking of these subjects in most contexts will typically not aid my progression. However, when a social norm prevents people from sharing growth-promoting experiences, I believe that the social norm should be done away with. The strange thing about these norms, though, is that they're not pronounced. It just feels strange if somebody breaks one. Therefore, I could go up to someone and tell them all about myself--my life story, what has made me who I am today--and then that person could tell me all about why they are the way they are, however, that is very unlikely to occur, because it would feel very strange to the other person to have someone bear their soul. I believe a conversation like that would greatly improve both of the participants' paradigm on life. However, the part that I lament the greatest about a lack of conversations like this, is the impact that it has on psychology and philosophy. I have always been interested in what people are thinking and why. Why do people act the way they do? What do their behaviors mean? Is there a "normal" or not? How can we know? My point is that I will not receive answers to these questions until people really start opening up. Perhaps that is why I am typically so open. I feel as if I can learn more about these subjects if I learn more about other people. If I open myself up and share, then other people tend to open up themselves, and share what is hidden below the surface. By learning about other people, perhaps I can also learn more about myself. It is interesting to me how that works out. You go out, trying to find the answers to your questions, trying to figure out how the world works around you, and by finding the answers to these complex questions, you also discover more about yourself. Anyway, I suppose I should actually start on my homework tonight, so nos vemos!