Friends

I feel nearly overwhelmed with the need to write. It's amazing how a simple sheet of lined paper can provide the perfect canvas to portray one's soul. It has been so long since I have truly written. I have dabbled here and there, but nothing extremely real or pertinent have I jotted down. I do not know precisely of what I should write. I have been contemplating it for nearly an hour. There merely semes to be too much swirling around in my head. Narrowing the options down is difficult, but finding time to write about all that I would desire to is even more difficult. First I beleive I will touch upon the worth of a soul. It is strenuous to comprehend how much influence just one person has on the world. I find it quite intriguing how people form relationships. I suppose it would be appropriate before I begin this discussion for me to admit that I have lost a high number of friends, mainly from moving. I have also been rejected a fair number of times. I fear pain. I disdain losing friends. Rejection truly does make me sad deep down, although I do quite well at hiding it and laughing it off. One might easily become convinced that life would be much easier if people did not form relationships. After all, relationships, friendships just lead to pain in the end. When I first moved to Bountiful Court I was convinced that I did not want anymore friends. I repeatedly told myself and others that. I did not want to experience the joy of a friendship, just to have that person leave, as they inevitably would, , and by leaving, they would also leave a hole in my heart. However, upon moving into BC, I promptly made a great number of friends and became even more social that I had hitherto been. It was a strange realization. My logic had been fallacious. I knew that it was, but to have proven myself wrong so quickly perturbed me slightly. What I didn't take into account was that a hole in the heart can only be patched by other people. I needed the good folk of Bountiful Court to boister me up and make me see my need. I have been so blessed in my life to meet phenomenal people at times in which I have really needed a good influence or example. I can honestly say that my life has been corrected, I have been set on the right path, a plethura of times by the special friends and people I have had the opportunity to become acquainted with throughout my life. I want to thank everyone who has ever made me smile or laugh, because it is you who has given me the ability to smile today. I want to thank everyone who has ever made me think--made me question the world, my beliefs, my self-being. You have led me to know who I am. Finally, I would like to thank all those who have pushed me to become better in any, or all ways. Those of your who have listened to me complain and then showed me how to get through my trials with a radiant smile on my face. Thank you for being you and for allowing yourself to be a beacon of light, a whirlwind of good, carrying me off onto a path of righteousness.

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The love of our Savior, pure and deep,
Brings such great joy--makes me sing and weep.
I sing of the joy, the blessings I've ben given.
I weep for the trials and pains that for me have been ridden.
I laugh and I cry in grand ecstasy.
And raise my voice high for the gospel decreed to me.
I'll share it, I will, with pure testimony.
And raise God's kingdom, be a beacon for all to see.

I wrote this at church :-) I know I should have been paying attention, but I was wicked tired.

To My Mother Dear

To my mother dear
Who once qualmed all my fear.
Who gave me food and drink
And acted as a shrink.
Who held me and caressed
And for that I've been blessed.

To my mother sweet
Who fed me bread and meat.
Who picked me up from school
When I was as sick as a fool.
Who attended my sports game
Even when it was lame.

To my mother kind
Who spanked me on my behind
When I was ill-behaved
Who corrected as I craved
And taught me simple truth
Even in my youth.

To my mother dear
Whose love brings me a tear.
Who loves me at all times
Despite my little crimes.
Who forgives me and lets go
And always lets her light show.