As a New Year Approaches...

A year is kind of a long time. What have I accomplished this year? I've wasted the last few months. That's for sure. I started country dancing this year and have met a lot of people through that. I have gone on a lot of dates, but nothing but disappointment has come from those. Disappointment and undeserved kisses. Ahhh...oh well. It happens. I worked a lot. Went to school a lot, but not nearly as much as I ought to have. I got a couple of pairs of cowboy boots! I started playing volleyball on Tuesday nights again. I haven't lost any friends, that I know of, and made even more friends. I became less judgemental. I became more patient and understanding. I got out of shape and started working on getting back in shape. I decided to join the army reserves. I got my first speeding ticket (ouch $240)! I discovered a little bit more about who I am. I lost all feeling of self-worth and started gaining it back. I also got my big ol' belt buckle, which I'm quite proud of, even though I didn't earn it in a rodeo or anything. I started eating spinach more than fruit. I started drinking water a billion times more than I drink juice. I really did make a lot of new friends. Awesome people. I've had my heart surprisingly broken a little and realized that my heart was not quite mended from years before. I've become more career oriented than boy oriented. I've started checking out trucks. I've made big mistakes and learned from them. I've cried, but laughed a heck of a lot more! I've changed my major, unofficially, about 3 times. I've started watching out for myself more. I realized that there are some guys that I'll possibly never really get over. I took an art class and started getting my creativity back. I've realized how...unique...I am.

Army

Well, I'm working on joining the army reserves. I want to get an the civil affairs MOS. Then in the fall I'm planning on joining ROTC, after basic. Man. I this could be one of the best decisions of my life. It could also be one of the worst. I am starting to get cold feet. I'm pretty nervous. It's something that I've thought about doing for a long, long time, but there are reasons that I haven't yet. I'm not sure what those are. They probably deal with waking up early. I'm not extremely great at waking up early, but as soon as I'm up, I'm usually good. Of course I'm facing a bit of opposition in this decision. I have people telling me that I shouldn't join, that it's going to be really hard, that's it's going to ruin me. Well...dang. That sucks. Luckily I also have people telling me that I would do awesome and that I can handle it. I'd like to think I can. I've been through a ton of crap before. Basic scares me, I'm not going to lie. Basic terrifies me. Oh man, and I really need to get in shape. I wish I were in shape for the first couple of weeks of ROTC, because they say that it's pretty dang bad the first couple of weeks, but...stupid snow. Snow makes it hard to live life!! Shoot! I should just buck up and go run in the snow. I'll be doing worse things in the army, anyway, but a part of me says that maybe I should just wait until I get in the army to do miserable things! Trevor said that it's natural to get cold feet before you join, and then to go through the buyer's phase, which i'm guessing is kinda like "oh..dang...maybe I should't have done this" and then you go to basic and you're like 'what the heck did I do to myself', and then you get out of there and the rest is pretty good. That's what I'm expecting. I know I'll like it once I get in there. I want to be army strong: mentally, physically, emotionally. I feel as if I do have what it takes to get there. Furthermore, I'll be an officer, so it shouldn't be as bad, and I'll get paid more. The only thing about being an officer is that you don't get to go out and do the cool stuff. Well, maybe. I guess that depends on the officer and the mission. Anyway, I have to go now, but I'll update more later.