Man hating!

Well, once again I am on the verge of giving up on the male species. I mean really!!! Do you know how frustrating it is to be a beautiful brunette of average size?! First of all, for some reason, men seem to want blondes. I do not understand this. At all. Not only do they want blondes, though, they want these tiny itsy bitsy little girls. It is absolutely ridiculous! I am not blonde, nor am I tiny! Shoot! I am the opposite of tiny! I can pick most men up!! haha Well, It's not that I'm fat, I just am a little bigger. One of the strangest things about men is that they really don't care about beauty. I'm not trying to say that I'm the most beautiful person in the world, but I don't think that I'm bad looking. However, being the prideful, terrible person that I am, I often judge other people's looks--especially the little blonde bimbos that boys choose. Do you realize how often they are not even pretty? They're just chosen because they are a little...racy, to put it nicely, short, and blonde?! It's infuriating! However, I suppose those are not the type of men that I want, so I really should probably be thankful that I am not one of those girls. What kind of life must they have? Always being hit on by the hott men that only care about those things? Shoot. I guess I'd rather stick with the typically strange fellows that flock me. I mean, they have a sense of style!! lol They know what a woman is! haha Anyway...so I realized last night that Cameron is not a homie, he's just a friend, which really does make me sad. As Albert told me, "A homie is someone you can call up any time and be like 'hey man, let's go kick it!' and the homie will be like 'yeah! right on!' but a friend is someone you call up and say 'hey man, let's go kick it!' and they'll be like 'well, i dunno...let me think about that for a while.'" Obviously I'm a homie. However, he is not. Which sucks. Our homie-age is just one-sided. Dude. Seriously, I deserve better friends then him. I mean, I could be blowing this out of proportion, but then again--I can't even come up with a defense for him. I mean, at least he's honest when he blows me off, though. He keeps saying that he wants to go country dancing, but he never comes, and now there are four days per week that he could choose from. The stupid thing is, that he could easily go on Saturday or Tuesday, but golly...he just doesn't. He said he's nervous...whatev. Stupid. On a grander note, though...I get to go country dancing tonight, and I went last night!! It's so much fun! It's probably one of my favorite things to do...even though some boys are stupid. You know, though, I just need a real man who knows what he wants in life. A fellow like that would appreciate me. haha I sound so retarded!! Oh well, I'm just venting all that most women feel!! I guess one thing that does bug me is that I'm just like them!! The guys, that is. I have a certain type that I like...well, actually I like many types, but I tend to go after only the guys that I think are cute, which is pretty sad, since I'm totally discriminating! How ridiculous is that?!! I have no room to talk! Shoot! Man, so there's this absolutely adorable guy who goes to the country dances, and he's so adorable!! He's a perfect gentleman, with an awesome personality...the only problem is he's tiny! Not only does he look really young for his age, but he's just plain small!! If he were a bigger fellow I would totally go for him...but he's not and so I don't. He probably gets that all the time, too. Poor guy. I mean, you just can't force someone to be different than their genetics will allow them. Anyway, I just proctored, so now I'm gonna go! But I wrote some poems and song lyrics while I was proctoring, it's possible that I'll post them. Peace.